19 weeks

Okay, I know I didn't post yesterday, but now I'm glad I didn't.

Last night while lying in bed, I felt a full fledged kick! It was so exciting...made my night! I had my hand resting on my belly and BAM!

What a great feeling (at least for now!).

150 days

150 days left! I just thought I would post on this wonderful occassion. It's hard to believe isn't it? I'll be even more excited when I'm under 100 days. Still a little over a week until the half way mark.

18 weeks

Gee...this week seemed long. You know how several months before your birthday you keep saying you're "almost" the next year older. Well this week it seems like I've been almost 18 weeks the whole week! I keep thinking I'm 19 weeks, but no, just 18 weeks.
I've decided to boycot Target and Amazon.com. Both sites have ripped me off this week. Both listed items for WAY lower than regular price, but then all the sudden they canceled the orders because of "pricing errors." Uh...that's your fault, not mine! So two great deals I thought I was getting I'm not getting at all. That's okay...shouldn't have tried to spend money anyway!
Not much new this week as you can tell. Counting down till 24 weeks...the edge of viability where he's got a chance of surviving if born. I'll feel better at 32 weeks though, which is still 14 weeks away.

Happy Birthday to me...

How come I don't feel like celebrating. Nothing seems right this year, except for this little one growing inside of me.
I just want my husband home.
I just want my kids to stop arguing...even if for one day...one hour would even be fine.
I don't want gifts. I don't want recognition...I just want those two things...
I'm feeling sorry for myself, and seriously hoping no one reads this blog today.

17 weeks

It really doesn't get any easier, at least the worrying anyway. Everyone knows someone who lost a baby, whether early on, later on, or after birth. The concern is always there, in the back of your head. It's not something you actually WANT to think about, but it creeps up every so often when you hear one of those stories.
I'm not thinking about it! I've made it 17 weeks, which is amazing. Only 7 more weeks before we reach the edge of viability where the baby has a chance (ever so slim chance) of survival.
It's been a quiet week. I finally have an appointment with a dietician tomorrow with hopes of controlling my glucose level better with less insulin. I really hope to not take insulin after the pregnancy.
Jeff is safe in Afghanistan. He's working night shift right now, which is tough. He said he just got used to jet lag and now he's working nights...poor guy.
Till next week.

16 week doctor's appointment

Gee...I'm beginning to think my wonderful doctor isn't so wonderful after all.She asks me about my sugar level and I tell her that I've increased my dosage. I ask her if she thinks I should meet with a dietician to try and control it through diet (duh) and she says that maybe that would be a good idea. I tell her the pharmacy only gave me enough test strips for twice a day instead of the five times a day she wants. She said to talk to the pharmacy about it.Next she tries to find the babie's heartbeat. She's trying by my belly button. I show her the exact spot to look, but she keeps looking everywhere else. Finally she tries the spot I tell her to and there is baby.She asks me if I want the AFP, and I decline. I ask her if I should have my thyroid rechecked as my level was off and my dose had to be adjusted 6 weeks ago. She said...ok.I ask her if there's any other testing I need for 16 weeks and she said no, I'll see you in a month.So I go to the lab, get my bloodwork done and then remember...shouldn't she have mentioned my 20 week ultrasound. I stop by radiology on the off chance she put it in...no, so I go back to OB and tell the front desk that she forgot to order my 20 week ultrasound. She said "what do you want me to do about it? Tell her at your next appointment." I tell her my next appointment is at 20 weeks and the ultrasound clinic told me they're runnign 6 weeks out for ultrasound appointments. She said "so do you want me to call your doctor or something?" I said, yeah something like that. So I sit in the waiting room while she goes and tells the doctor. She comes back and tells me that she'll put it in but it will be awhile because she's with a patient.So I go down to the pharmacy. It's a military pharmacy so you pick a number and wait. I wait 20 minutes and get to the counter and try and explain that they only gave me a 30 day supply but the box says 90 day supply. She hands me two more boxes and it says 90 day supply. I tell her I'm supposed to test 5 times a day and she tells me that the doctor will have to specify that in the order and that the doctor should know that....So then I go back up to radiology and am told to pick a number and have a seat. The girl at the desk is making an appointment for another hospital employee. They're joking around, looking at pictures, etc. Finally the girl is done and I think it will be my turn...NO, the girl gets up and leaves...5 mintues later she comes back, sits down and starts talking politics with the other girl at the desk. I wait 15 more minutes as more people come in and take numbers and sit down. Finally another person got up and said she needed to make an appointment and she started making her appointment for her...I told her that I was next and she said "oh, I forgot you were sitting there. I didn't know we had anybody waiting." HELLO you just told 5 people to take a number and sit down, yet you didn't know you had anyone waiting. I was furious by this point. I had been at the hospital 2 hours. The lady said "well don't take your anger out on me!" ARGH!!!Finally I left, the kids were to get off the bus any minute and I hadn't eaten anything since breakfast so my sugar level was crashing.I finally got my ultrasound appointment for December 11th. I couldn't make my next appointment with the OB because their schedule isn't out for December yet???I HATE this hospital with a passion, but unfortunately you can't go off base. If you made it this far, bless your soul!!